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I hope there's truth in it.
Last night was bad.
Too much yelling. And acting like a 5-year-old. With adult power.
Still suffering from the hangover today.
I only tell you that in a desperate hope that today I'll be good and behave like a...i don't know, but not like a freakin monster.
Ok, off for an early morning run.
Or not. But it sounded like a good idea!
Please tell me you have bad nights too? No no no.... embarrassing nights? Or days?
Please tell me you have bad nights too? No no no.... embarrassing nights? Or days?
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Yes, yes I do. Too often I call my husband at work crying because I know I have just behaved very badly. Even as I type I'm trying to breathe and forgive so I don't get too overwhelmed and behave badly today.
ReplyDeleteAll the time Gay. All the time. Sending you positive vibes today.... XOXO
ReplyDeleteOh gay seriously I have days and nights like that all the time! Dee always tells me I am going to miss this one day....
ReplyDeleteLast Thursday actually. It's Tuesday and I still feel like the worst mother ever. I just hope my poor children will be able to forget my overreacting temper tantrum days more easily than I do.
ReplyDeleteOh mamas thanks for making me feel not alone. Melanie I feel like that's always the case- the kids are totally fine and I still can't bear to look them in the eye. Diana I always wonder if my husband would leave me if he knew te truth! Jk jk but I do hate telling him what I put his kids through. I know I'll miss these days- but not these times when I act Crazy…w a capital C!
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone. We all have those moments. And as hard as it is to admit to ourselves that we behaved badly, that's what we need to do to be better. =) Hope today is better!!
ReplyDeleteAll too often for me! Especially when I'm 8 months pregnant and living the single mom life. Right now its sooooo much better because we are in Nashville with Caleb but back home it was getting pretty nasty. I always feel like Caleb balances me out. Like if I see him being a little impatient with the boys, I am forced to take on the role of the patient one even though in the same situation at a different time I would be the impatient one. Does that make sense? Its a constant struggle! Hope today is better. They usually are after bad days :-)
ReplyDeletetotally makes sense. yosh's worst brings out my best. did i mention he's out of town?!! embarrassingly enough, this other girl is staying the night at our house for a cpl nights and got to hear it all. her presence didn't even simmer me. Glad you're with your bitity bitez. ps just spent a good 45 minutes with the Rebel. Now to learn how to edit better....
Deletethis is refreshing. sometimes i feel like you never lose your cool. sometimes i wonder if i am the only one who loses it big time with my kids. i think you remember my last post. good news...they have probably already forgotten about it
ReplyDeleteOh Laura it's funny that u perceive me that way. I will say I do very well in public about keeping my cool! Which is where I always see u! I read ur post and of course thought u were totally normal and probably being harder on yourself that u really needed to be. Guess we will always be our own worst critics.
DeleteCan I tell you that I was kind of being a monster to sweet little Davis last night! Ryan was out of town & he wouldn't stop whining & kicking my very pregnant stomach. Instead of acting like an adult & keeping my cool over the situation, I was acting like a toddler right back to him. I kissed him & laid him down post bath & then cried & cried & cried as I said a little prayer of forgiveness. Hate those days! But thank goodness today is a new day & I can do better!
ReplyDeleteGirl I would have cried right by your side. I seriously didn't even want to talk to anybody and admit out loud how everything went down. Kinda felt good to write it though. Davis is lucky to have you- don't forget that!
DeleteUm probably everyday in the car, because that's when he decides to pull out all the whining stops, non stop, consistent, not even breaking for a minute. And sometimes, ok a lot of times I lose it and whine and scream right back at him. It's embarrassing but sometimes you lose your cool...,it happens. Thank heavens they are unconditionally loving, and we can forgive ourselves ( after a good cry) and try again tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteLove u
Xo
P.s are u coming to Utah for the wedding?! Let's get together even if it's for a minute!
You know I do (somehow I fel like napoleon dynamite when I say that in my head...heck yea, you know I do).
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